Today is another day...

I have had a lot of positive responses from everyone. Thank you for being such a positive force in my life.

As I am sitting here preparing to do dinner for the family, I can't seem to stop thinking about this past week on vacation. Do you ever experience something (good or bad) and you can't stop replaying the situation over and over in your head? My family and I took a couple of days off and went to VA beach area to visit my sister and her family. It was an awesome trip. We did a lot, in very little time. Water Country USA on Thursday, Busch Gardens on Friday, and the beach on Saturday. I was really excited about going to Busch Gardens. I had not been since high school and I was extremely excited about going again. It wasn't until I got to the park that I realized that I may not be able to ride some of the roller coasters. I love roller coasters, but memories from a previous Hershey Park visit a few years back, brought back some memories. I remember I was with my sister in law and we went off together at Hershey Park to ride a couple of rides together. We left the kiddos with our hubby's and took off. I remember getting on this ride where your feet dangle, but you have this huge harness that goes over top of your head. In order to ride the ride you have to be able to clip the harness over your head and between your legs. I remember a girl that was a little larger than I was, was unable to completely close the harness. She was made to get off the ride because she was too large. All I could think of walking into Busch Gardens was that I was going to be that girl, unable to ride the rides because I was too large. I knew I was going to have difficulty because I am much larger now then I was a few years ago. I remember sitting on that ride with my sister in law having difficulty closing the harness myself. I sat there and prayed and sucked in my stomach as much as I could and it finally snapped shut. "THANK THE LORD", I remember hearing myself say.

So walking into Busch Gardens I immediately suggested to everyone, "hey you guys go ahead and take the teenagers and Patty and I will take the little kids". Of course the guys were all excited no arguments there, I of course suggested this without consulting my sister. She agreed to go with me and the kids, but she really wanted to ride the roller coasters as well. Here is yet another hindrance that I have had all because of my weight.

Finally we all met up and went around the park together. Patty finally got to ride a ride with the teens and men. While they were on the rides I tried sitting on one of the seats that they have sitting outside the coasters lines. Yeah, I was right, I didn't fit in the seat nor did the harness close. Embarrassed and ashamed, I sat with the little kids and cried. I hated that feeling. I don't want to be this person any longer. I want to be smaller, I want to walk into a theme park and be able to sit in the seats without worrying of whether I am going to fit in the seat or not.

That's ok, next year when I AM smaller I am going back to Busch Gardens and I am going to ride EVERY SINGLE ride. I may even pay extra to be able to cut in front of everyone else just to ensure that I get to ride every single ride.

I couldn't help but think of this today. More motivation to keep moving, and keep the food from my lips!